day 1 (24-6-05)
got unexpectedly ‘you-noe wad’ aft cuming bck from tuition. pretty much personified cho chang- da human hosepipe from harry potter for da next 2 hours or so…hehez.had 2 call alicia for moral support…..gurls stick 4 each other babeh.feelings? mad at myself…mad at HIM…confused…surprised…kinda pissed off…
day 2 (25-6-05)
had 2 go 2 sch 4 da kempen kebersihan thingy…i’m not da kuai k..70% of my tujuan was 2 fake sum photos 4 da moral project thingy =P. every1 hu went saw my goldfish eyes (ewww…) then u-noe-hu sms-ed me…replied lik everything was normal..haiz…y m i such a pretender? when i reached hme..was pretty ok..until i saw sumthing dat reminded me of u-noe-hu so i tot of him/// sobbed without reli knowing y i was doing it (guess it’s juz a normal thingy 2 do when u get u-noe-wad rite? hahaz). went on9 at nt n chatted wif u-noe-hu…his excuse is he din reli meant 2 hurt me but he tot it wud hurt me more if he continued sumthing he din put his heart in2 (!!!) tot 2 myself ‘if he couldn’t put his heart in2// then y da hell did he even start it’. complained 2 qiao ‘y izit dat everything i hv nvr lasts?’ qiao sez him 2..’mayb coz we’re both november babes?’. got such theory? needed tissue paper again…oops
day 3 (26-6-05)
sunday…dun reli rmb wad happened…but i noe i had bsb’s ‘incomplete’ stuck in my head ‘i tried 2 go n lik i never knew u. i’m awake but my world is half asleep. i pray 4 dis heart 2 b unbroken but without u all i’m going 2 b is incomplete’ i rmb sobbing a bit tho…ahem
day 4 (27-6-05)
back 2 sch d…thank god eyes normal d… talked abt it wif ping…i dun tink i reli concentrated on wad d teachers were saying at all dat day/// {*_*} then darren suddenly talked abt him…told him takder d/// darren said ‘******’. frens r pissed off 2 noe.no crying dat day but lotsa hugs wif ping
day 5 (28-6-05)
another mundane day in sch…i tink i tried 2 concentrate. hahaz… sorry cikgus// i promise 2 b a goodie.my mood? ok larr… onli sad abit…kinda normal d in fact…no crying. heard hilary duff’s ’so yesterday’ on da way bck from sch/// tot 2 myself ‘dis is so how i shud feel’. sang da chorus of da song everytime i felt down
day 6 (29-6-05)
fren sez she saw u-noe-hu being reli close 2 sum gurl…n sum gurl ****************** long story…can’t say i din feel jealous at all/// coz if i din then how cum i couldn’t fall asleep leh? (b4 class started larr…i’m stil not dat paisi) started doubting da reason i got u-noe-wad is coz of da commitment crap. dude from class keeps bugging me wif msgs…got annoyed.later, zi quan msged me 2 ask me how i was doin..said he read my blog (i’m kinda surprised…tot nobody reads da crap i write…but apparently i’m wrong o, thx everybody). was stil singing ’so yesterday’…no crying. andy saw me looking down n sez ‘u wanna find one easy nia larr…got so many choices’. haha…thx dude
day 7 (30-6-05)
nth 2 report in sch…met u-noe-hu in tuition…was kinda awkward at 1st…but aft dat pretty ok d. he onli admitted da fact dat da reason he dumped me was partly becoz of another gurl/// tink it’s da 1 mentioned on day 6. c? i was rite/// not ready 4 commitment my ass. feelin slightly worse than in day 6. no crying…’so yesterday’
day 8 (1-7-05)
officially 1 week d…i’m ok…guess i bounced rite bck =).. fren wants 2 gv my # 2 dude from clhs whom fren sez is interested in urs truly/// dude happens 2 b mum’s student..lolx. frens start 2 bug me if i wud consider <names of sum ppl> if dey r interested in moi….c? i’m talking abt other peeps d….i’m reli ok…not happy or nything lar///i mean, hu wud b? but i’m fine…
thx every1 4 ur support…i lurve all of ya
