fly lik a bird….a very bored 1 tho

November 10th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

Oh yea..sch’s finally over…well, not reli…tmr’s da last day n i’m ponteng-ing..lolz y zit dat once ur not f1 or f2 u dun seem 2 gv a shit bout rulez nymore..hmmm

exam’s oso over…reli screwed up ler…dunno da results yet actually..except est n sj…happy bout est actually.but my sj so blek~ n all my sciences le…..haiz.

er…wad else? oh da canteen day thing…turns out i din becum da dj dat day…da tchers in charge did..lolz.it was ok ler…finally met yc face-to-face…lolz, but hurt sum1’s feelings…so yea, i m a bad person~ hahaz.

booya~

my name in hieroglyphics

October 15th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

*cheryl*

not in lurve

October 13th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

i’m serious! i tink i jz suddenly realised dis…but it’s totally tru. anywayz, i was reading one of my previous blogs…n i suddenly remembered i wanna upd8 abt dat aspect (ahem ahem) so here i am…

let’s not point fingers huh…but no gurl can lik sum1 hu liks her n another gal…k? got it? well, jz wana get my point across… *hint hint 2 every other guy out ther winks*

update!

October 13th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

hi!!! wanted 2 update coz mr. mcdelivery (heh heh) said dat i hvnt updated 4 so long d…u reli read my blogs 1 meh? u said u wanna blog but u onli advertise jaycees thingys leh…hahaz.

dunno wad 2 say lerr…exam coming…damn stress. summore mum n dad r not around…gotta b in-charge of everything..haiz. er…try listening 2 mike shinoda’s side project- fort minor…nice!!!

oh yea… my sch’s hving a family day on 29-10-05..actually it was called ‘canteen day’ 1 but aft dat dey changed it…loosen da rulez oso…so more ppl will go kua..hahaz. do go n support…all da food tchers prepare 1…sao jian ler..lolx. i’m da dj… hope i dun screw up *fingers crossed*

so…mr mcdelivery…sorry dat it’s so short…bz..lik u..hahaz. take care! muax gd luck in ur exam

nth in particular

August 26th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

helloz…..me again…well i hvnt been updating 4 a very long time, no? i’ve been tinking..y izit dat i alwez blog onli when i’ve had a particularly bad day or feel really down?

well..nywez…it’s lik da ending of da hols d…sux la…n my hols hv been way boring 2..oh looky xiang’s complainin again. mebe it’s sum kinda bad habit or sumthing? oh lolx.. hope not lerr…hahaz. other than laze around n read lotsa story books n spending lotsa time wif pepper, i hvnt done nything else..xcluding mundane stuff lik tv n music, of coz.

juz read ‘da sisterhood of da travelling pants’ 2day…n i swear, it is reli reli nice…but then again…i’m a nerdy nerdy nerd..hahaz.  n dat’s another reason y i’m sooooo tired rite now…coz i juz HAD 2 finish all 294 pages of it da moment i got it bck from da new popular in gurney..n i did..izit sum kind of hidden talent i hv (!!!)? being able 2 speed-read, dat is. well, if onli i cud speed-read those boring sch books or sumthing…then mebe i wudn’t hate exams so much.hahaz

so how was sch b4 da hols started? well BAD, obviously…coz ther were juz so much 2 do…exams, projects n assignments..sux. well, it doesn’t help dat i’m probably a teeny bit in luv..lolz.

i noe kara (bless her) told me dat i shud concentrate on ma studies n stuff n dat i shud tink of da lurvy-dovey aspects of a gurl’s life onli when i’m old enuff. i tink she’s lik every mum’s perfect daughter, no? i mean i guess all mum’s out ther 1 their kid’s 2 hv bf/gf relationships when they r 21 or sumthing…no? i dunno y my mum’s suddenly so open-minded…i mean, she doesn’t lik ncourage me 2 get bfs or nything…but she’s not ‘HELL NO!’…hmm…but i dun tink dat’s even in her vocab…oh well. since my previous 1, we’re lik way more open abt these kinda stuff..it’s kinda nice…esp when my fren’s r so envious n stuff (heh heh).

n while we’re on da subject of my previous 1…well, i’d juz lik 2 say dat we’re so gr8 as, y’noe juz frens now…not 2 much of each other, dat is…hehez. he’s got his gal…n i’ve got my guy(s)…hahaz…(since when hv i become such a big headed gurl?!?). but i dunno y my frens n my bro stil cant c dat i’m so ok wif how everything turned out…i can 4get n get over it…but dey can’t, sumhow…lolx. hu’d tot i wasn’t da grudgy kind huh? hahaz

well, toking abt my guys arr…no big deal reali…n i dun wanna disclose 2 much details except dat.. ther is 1 , more of a watak utama…n ther r a few others…..oh well. i guess i’ll keep u up 2 d8 when stuff happen…hahaz.

any interesting stuff? err…dun tink so… but guess wad? i saw this reli cool shirt 4 guys when i went shopping dat day.. it had ‘LOVE IS FOR LOSERS’ printed on it…perfect 4 bitter ppl huh? hahaz…i stil tink it’s kinda cute tho. oh sumthing else happened 2…1 of my good frens, J is lik reli crushed now…reli. heard she makan tak lalu, tidur tak lena…poor thing.. n it’s becoz of dis guy… oso J. we’ve cum 2 dis conclusion dat guys from XXX (a certain sch in penang…da oldest 1 arr…hint hint) r weird…in a bad way..so no offense if ur from da above mentioned sch or sumthing…hehe. i dare u 2 prove 2 me dat u r not a playboy n stuff… sumhow daring ppl 2 do stuff has oso becum sum sort of hobby 4 me…lolz. guess my life it’s juz way pathetic.

n i hv dis new list of fave stuff now… (boring 2 u..but so wad?) hahaz. desperate housewives rox!!! it’s juz so lawak n dark n satirical (did i spell it rite?) at da same time…i so can’t get enuff of it. it’s a bit lik sex n da city, i guess… except ther’s stuff abt kids… n it isnt alwez tok abt threesomes (oh god) n da f-word so much…hahaz. green day’s ‘wake me up when september ends’ rox 2… it’s juz way sad..seriously. esp if u watch da video… another shot at mr bush, ladies n gentlemen…juz american idiot is not enuff, i guess…hahaz. if u wan it, i can send it 2 ya tru msn when i’m on9, k?

well i’m reli running out of stuff 2 say…n u probably tink ‘thank god’ ..hahaz coz mebe i’ve bored u 2 near death or sumthing…oh well. u cant stop my chattermouth..

bubyez…

honestly!

July 15th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

me? i’m fine now…well, more than fine in fact. i reli dun wanna make any1 feel guilty abt ANYTHING…k? noe wad i mean? y m i writing dis? coz i wanna clear everything up…i’m ok now…i wan us 2 b normal again…no animosity, even tho it was so damn weird n kinda awkward on thurs…hahaz.. wadever… dis post is oso meant 4 ma fwens… dudes, i dun feel blah k? dun b so mean anymore..hehez. oh god..mebe i’m juz babbling n wad i’m posting isn’t even coherent///well,ther’s a good reason k..? it’s almost 3 am larr…gotta go 2 sch 4 kelas tambahan 2mr summore…haiz.

nitez!!

comments so far

July 2nd, 2005 by blurrycheryl

‘i hate him, i hate him’ - pnk

‘y r we alwez so unlucky?’ -pnk

‘wad an asshole’ -lwr

‘he’s such a freak’ (or wazzit ‘he’s such a jerk’ ?) -jul

‘he’s so mao2 dun4′ -alc

‘i told u so’ -drn

‘he’s useless…4get abt him’ -kli

‘dun tink abt it anymore’ -kli

‘y so bu4 hui4 xiang3 ?’ -gzn

‘ur both only 16…it’s not da time 4 commitment, gurl. jz tink of him as another person hu made ur life richer. widen ur circle of frens, u’ll b ok’ -mummy (hu else? hahaz…i lurve ya)

‘want me 2 beat him up 4 u?’ -kvn

hahaz…if ur reading this…no offence k? told u my frens r so much more pissed off than i m///

the ~dumped~ diaries

July 2nd, 2005 by blurrycheryl

day 1 (24-6-05)

got unexpectedly ‘you-noe wad’ aft cuming bck from tuition. pretty much personified cho chang- da human hosepipe from harry potter for da next 2 hours or so…hehez.had 2 call alicia for moral support…..gurls stick 4 each other babeh.feelings? mad at myself…mad at HIM…confused…surprised…kinda pissed off…

day 2 (25-6-05)

had 2 go 2 sch 4 da kempen kebersihan thingy…i’m not da kuai k..70% of my tujuan was 2 fake sum photos 4 da moral project thingy =P. every1 hu went saw my goldfish eyes (ewww…) then u-noe-hu sms-ed me…replied lik everything was normal..haiz…y m i such a pretender? when i reached hme..was pretty ok..until i saw sumthing dat reminded me of u-noe-hu so i tot of him/// sobbed without reli knowing y i was doing it (guess it’s juz a normal thingy 2 do when u get u-noe-wad rite? hahaz). went on9 at nt n chatted wif u-noe-hu…his excuse is he din reli meant 2 hurt me but he tot it wud hurt me more if he continued sumthing he din put his heart in2 (!!!) tot 2 myself ‘if he couldn’t put his heart in2// then y da hell did he even start it’. complained 2 qiao ‘y izit dat everything i hv nvr lasts?’ qiao sez him 2..’mayb coz we’re both november babes?’. got such theory? needed tissue paper again…oops

day 3 (26-6-05)

sunday…dun reli rmb wad happened…but i noe i had bsb’s ‘incomplete’ stuck in my head ‘i tried 2 go n lik i never knew u. i’m awake but my world is half asleep. i pray 4 dis heart 2 b unbroken but without u all i’m going 2 b is incomplete’ i rmb sobbing a bit tho…ahem

day 4 (27-6-05)

back 2 sch d…thank god eyes normal d… talked abt it wif ping…i dun tink i reli concentrated on wad d teachers were saying at all dat day/// {*_*} then darren suddenly talked abt him…told him takder d/// darren said ‘******’. frens r pissed off 2 noe.no crying dat day but lotsa hugs wif ping

day 5 (28-6-05)

another mundane day in sch…i tink i tried 2 concentrate. hahaz… sorry cikgus// i promise 2 b a goodie.my mood? ok larr… onli sad abit…kinda normal d in fact…no crying. heard hilary duff’s ’so yesterday’ on da way bck from sch/// tot 2 myself ‘dis is so how i shud feel’. sang da chorus of da song everytime i felt down

day 6 (29-6-05)

fren sez she saw u-noe-hu being reli close 2 sum gurl…n sum gurl ****************** long story…can’t say i din feel jealous at all/// coz if i din then how cum i couldn’t fall asleep leh? (b4 class started larr…i’m stil not dat paisi) started doubting da reason i got u-noe-wad is coz of da commitment crap. dude from class keeps bugging me wif msgs…got annoyed.later, zi quan msged me 2 ask me how i was doin..said he read my blog (i’m kinda surprised…tot nobody reads da crap i write…but apparently i’m wrong o, thx everybody). was stil singing ’so yesterday’…no crying. andy saw me looking down n sez ‘u wanna find one easy nia larr…got so many choices’. haha…thx dude

day 7 (30-6-05)

nth 2 report in sch…met u-noe-hu in tuition…was kinda awkward at 1st…but aft dat pretty ok d. he onli admitted da fact dat da reason he dumped me was partly becoz of another gurl/// tink it’s da 1 mentioned on day 6. c? i was rite/// not ready 4 commitment my ass. feelin slightly worse than in day 6. no crying…’so yesterday’

day 8 (1-7-05)

officially 1 week d…i’m ok…guess i bounced rite bck =).. fren wants 2 gv my # 2 dude from clhs whom fren sez is interested in urs truly/// dude happens 2 b mum’s student..lolx. frens start 2 bug me if i wud consider <names of sum ppl> if dey r interested in moi….c? i’m talking abt other peeps d….i’m reli ok…not happy or nything lar///i mean, hu wud b? but i’m fine…

thx every1 4 ur support…i lurve all of ya

letter to u-shud-noe-hu-u-r

June 25th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

dear u-shud-noe-hu-u-r,

i’m so disappointed at u…how could u b so indecisive…one minute u’r ‘yeah..we’ll make it happen’ n da next u’r ‘i tink we r better off as frens’. can’t u c dat i’m heartbroken…i pretend dat everything is alrite n i’m ok wif da things u say…n it’s not entirely ur fault….i shuda let u noe wad u mean 2 me when u said da things u said…but i dun wan u 2 feel lik i’m tying u down

u say u lik me…but u dun luv me…n i tell u da same. but wad if i luv u? wad if? mayb i was lying? i seriously dunno how i feel…i need u so…u say u needed me remember? sumtimes i feel dat da reason u even lik me is becoz u find me caring…could it b u onli want sum1 2 care 4 u? i noe i’m possesive…i get so jealous easily…

being in a relationship needs a lot of commitment…n i noe u r bz…u dun wanna b pulled down by me…being in a relationship is difficult…u need a lot of patience n sacrifice. n ur circle of frens get smaller…mayb u tink at 16 it’s not fair 4 both of us?

our situation is weird…it’s not secretly-admiring…n it’s not a one-sided romance…we both hv feelings 4 each other..but we r not 2gether…n i hv a feeling u dun wan us 2 be….i hope my heart will b unbroken…i cried so much yesterday…u asked if i was ok…but how could i tell u? u wud feel guilty…u said no grudges rite? of course ther wud b no grudges…i kenot truly hate u.

i want u…n yet i hate u 4 making me this miserable mess.i love u 4 making me strive  2 b my best juz 4 da sake of u…n i luv u 4 making me so happy no matter wad i’m doin..but i hate u 4 letting me put everything in2 ‘us’ -if ther ever was such a thing.n now i hv nth…i’m juz empty…

i used 2 wonder how da hell did u ever lik me…me? normal gurl…not hot or sexy or gorgeous…u? mister pop, so good at so many things..u had everything…n so many admirers…u tink i wasn’t jealous when u talked abt them?of course i was…

i dunno how 2 act when i c u now…lik nth’s ever happened? lik we were jz normal frens b4 n aft?

haiz…i’m writing this on da 25th of june…10.37 pm/ mayb this is how i feel at da moment..i could b fine when u c me?

yea well, u stil mean a lot 2 me…

xiang

yeah

June 10th, 2005 by blurrycheryl

i’ve been soooo happy lately (minus da sucky sch work n not going out n missing sum1 sooo much)…i lurve my life rite now…n i ain’t telling u y yet.

ps/ is da pink font i’m using a hint? go figure…pink symbolizes wad? i ain’t telling…yet, i guess…

hugz n muakz,

cheryl~ here 2 rock ur sox